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accident proneTopic: General News
Okay, this has bothered me all night so I'm going to talk a little bit here even though I don't prefer to post until update night for whatever comic is in question then. I might get a little too personal here, and I'm certainly going to cross a few business-chat taboos. But I feel that this it the right thing to do.
I'm a big person for taking responsibility for one's actions. So the first thing I have to say is that the drama on the last post wasn't completely my fault, but I did play a hand in it. The long of the short of it is that there are these two people whome I regret befriending that ever so many cycles rise up and try to make my life a living hell. So I guess you can say that Death has an arch-enemy or two. (Which means I'm more famous than I let on.)
Their names aren't Life. I'd call them Cuckoo and Jackass. And right now Cuckoo has stopped taking his meds (he openly admitted) and has turned his guns on my life for the 3rd time in 5 years. He has hunted down my social activity and raised hell; my spiritual activity, and we've been suspecting that he's the one that was stuffing the ballot box.
When I read Iceberg's comment, I had just been told of something else Cuckoo had done against me and was a little overly sensitive at the time. There's no excuse for this, but I will tell you that having this problem in your life for at least 10 years can make you a little paranoid. The law won't help in most cases like this, and moving from Florida to Illinois and trying to start a new life for myself also has not seemed to help.
In that over sensitive (and stupid) moment I went to my husband, who is home on leave, with the issues. I couldn't respond nicely and well to Iceberg's question, so I asked him to do so. He was only trying to defend me while explaining the tax thing, and on retrospect I should have told him "be nice" instead of reveling in the feeling of safety his actions gave to me. So I take full blame and responsibility for this.
Everyone has my deepest and most humble apology at my stupidity. One should never assume anything, especially in social affairs, and I am a total jackass.
So to explain a little further on tax matters: I've been freelance off and on since I was 18 years old. I even have a registered 59 number with the IRS... and I'd use it if I could remember what it was. I take "regular jobs" on occasion because freelance rarely pays the bills completely, but yes the government hates me because I report losses every year and survive by the skin of my teeth. The important part here, though, is that I do report my earnings or lack thereof.
I don't own a business, although the state of Illinois has decided I do and sent me paperwork on the matter. "Writers of the Apocalypse" is merely a team name. I pay Conquest and War straight for their work as if they were freelance artists as well, and we have signed contracts on that to make the government happy.
When Akashik started two years ago, I *was* flat broke and it was my roommate that was supporting me while I hunted desperately for a job. I didn't "quit a dayjob for this" as per apparent myth. I had to quit my day job because I was the next person up for fire in a string of high turnover tactics that some of you I am sure have seen many times. There were no jobs to be found as a replacement either, our rent was close to 1000 a month, I was desperate, and so I went back to the thing I know best: comics.
I met my husband on web forum because of this comic, and hey. Now I'm married. So this is the part where I explain that I'm not flat broke and this comic is still going on because of him. There have been many times that it looked like Akashik was going to go down, and he always came to the rescue like a knight in shining armor. He has given me all the support and love anyone could ever ask for, and the current situation where I've backed off to get an income and help pay the bills is not what he wants.
BUT... Akashik has carried on because of... his hazard pay. My husband was in Iraq when we met, and he has been in Iraq for most of our marriage. Next month is our first anniversay and we might get to see each other for it; we're not sure. He's home from Iraq now and has transfered from Schoefield in Hawaii to Fort Campbell in Ky (2 hours from our house), and this is FABULOUS but... it also means his pay is being cut in half. Currently he's home on leave while making the change, which means our pay is going to change in just 2 weeks.
That's a pretty tight schedule for me to get my ducks in a row. =^-^=;
What I have decided in order to avoid future drama like yesterday's because I... really didn't like that... is to institute a new rule. If someone posts something that I feel is going to cause major drama, I reserve the right to delete it without a word. It won't be anything personal, and it doesn't necessarily have to be nasty. In fact, a nasty comment may not even get deleted. That's not the point. I very much want to see people's responses and I very much want to encourage people to continue replying to the blog posts. I also want people here to have good experiences and not negative ones. That's why Akashik is a comedy.
By the way, there was a donation yesterday that equals extra page this week, by the way. I'll be working on that today before I go back to finding gaming companies to send my resume to. =^-^= Woot. Wish me luck.
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